Life often gets complicated when you have 3 little monkeys running around you all day, and blogs get shoved to the side and not updated. I'm working on a plan to update more often, hopefully with some helpful free downloads. This year we've had many changes in our family but the biggest has been our decision to homeschool our children. We are at week 9 and I honestly can't believe I'm saying this but I hope they never have to go back to "real school" as they like to call it. They are flourishing and learning and I've enjoyed every moment with them at home. And honestly I’ve learned a lot too on this journey. I’ve learned that I spend way too much time on my computer and not nearly enough time in my bible. I’ve learned that sometimes just sitting with your daughter on the couch can completely make her day. I’ve learned that a messy house means it’s lived in. I’ve also learned that planning and scheduling can lead to joy.
Now I'm not going to say homeschooling is easy - it is anything but easy. I spend hours each week planning the perfect lessons for them. Sometimes it works and sometimes we just throw it out the window and start over. We read crazy amounts of books. We study our bibles. We make art and listen to music. We watch documentaries and we play. We play a lot!
Now for the truth. My house is usually a mess. My laundry is hardly ever caught up. I often forget to respond to emails and text. When I go to the grocery store there are normally three kids with me that typically don’t want to be there. I seldomly get a break except on weekends when my husband is home. And occasionally I hide in the closet just to get away for a minute. And even more truth - I know that God called our family to homeschool and I know that I am right were he wants me to be, even on the days when hiding in the closet seems like my only escape. I can remember many years ago my Mom telling me that in some of her darkest moments she went to her closet to pray.
But you, when you pray, go into your inner room, close your door and pray to your Father who is in secret, and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you. Matthew 6:6
How often do we really go into the darkness of our closets and call out to Jesus? I don’t do it often enough. Turn everything off around you and really call out to Jesus and you might be surprised to hear his voice very clearly.
This week I am trying much harder to be present in my home. I’ve turned off Facebook (If you can’t seem to do it yourself try the SelfControl app). I’ve put my phone down. I’ve tried to listen more to what my kids are actually saying and I’ve played when I really didn’t want to play. What are you doing to be more present with those around you?